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The envelope, please.
Sep. 9th, 2000 03:26 amWell, I'm still single. 11mo and counting now, but who's counting?
Esther had kinda been avoiding me at the party last night (or at least, it seemed that way to me) so, we eventually talked.. I knew that as of last discussion (8/27, 4am-ish) she started the decision process of whether or not she could see me as more than a very good friend (which is what I've been for ~3yrs now).. and I do think she'd been trying to decide in my favor for a couple weeks or so now. But she finally came to the conclusion that, for whatever reason, she can't see me as more than a friend, and that it wouldn't be fair to either of us for her to try to convince herself to.
And so it goes.. I'm not particularly upset, in part because I'd inferred that that was the conclusion she was coming to, and in part because we're still as good friends as we were before..
But, it still kinda sucks.
Esther had kinda been avoiding me at the party last night (or at least, it seemed that way to me) so, we eventually talked.. I knew that as of last discussion (8/27, 4am-ish) she started the decision process of whether or not she could see me as more than a very good friend (which is what I've been for ~3yrs now).. and I do think she'd been trying to decide in my favor for a couple weeks or so now. But she finally came to the conclusion that, for whatever reason, she can't see me as more than a friend, and that it wouldn't be fair to either of us for her to try to convince herself to.
And so it goes.. I'm not particularly upset, in part because I'd inferred that that was the conclusion she was coming to, and in part because we're still as good friends as we were before..
But, it still kinda sucks.
