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Shit. maybe.
Sep. 17th, 2000 11:13 pmWell, there was a guy (JP) at the (free!) Guster concert this evening acting rather possessive of Bria. Like arms-around-her, requesting-a-real-kiss-on-the-cheek, jerk possessive. But she didn't seem to take him incredibly seriously, so I don't know.. I asked her friend about him, haven't heard back yet.
*sigh*
In somewhat more positive news, in a way, Esther arrived at the updated decision (after I'd stopped actively pursuing her--more or less; when I was no longer actively interested, just passively) that she actually probably is interested in me now. So depending how things fall with Bria, I may have Esther as a backup. Thing is, I don't want it feeling like it's a backup. I'm very interested in Bria at the moment, and hoping this thing with JP isn't what it looks like.. but if that doesn't work out, would I be going to Esther because she's available, or because I really want to? Esther is a close friend, personally, emotionally, and physically, and I'd have been happy to date her before I latched onto the idea of Bria.. now that that's in my head, it changes things..
*sigh again*
dunno..
*sigh*
In somewhat more positive news, in a way, Esther arrived at the updated decision (after I'd stopped actively pursuing her--more or less; when I was no longer actively interested, just passively) that she actually probably is interested in me now. So depending how things fall with Bria, I may have Esther as a backup. Thing is, I don't want it feeling like it's a backup. I'm very interested in Bria at the moment, and hoping this thing with JP isn't what it looks like.. but if that doesn't work out, would I be going to Esther because she's available, or because I really want to? Esther is a close friend, personally, emotionally, and physically, and I'd have been happy to date her before I latched onto the idea of Bria.. now that that's in my head, it changes things..
*sigh again*
dunno..
